Friendship isn't as easy as it looks.

There are many things about my friendship life that confuse me.

Okay... you all may now know about my best friend Sahra. I love her with all my heart. I dont know how i would survive without her being around. We laugh at the same things, we cry about the same things, we are so alike we can finish each other's sentences. Most people would think "So what all best friends have that?" No you dont understand. What Sahra and i have you wish you could have buddy.
The weird thing is we dont look like were best friends at all to people on the outside. Why? Because we dont hang out that much at school.

And this is where another group of friends comes in.


Then there is this group i hang out with at school. They are chilling. Fun to hang out with, have interesting topics sometimes but honestly sometimes i feel like they dont know the real me. And the truth is, sometimes i think they dont care and dont want to know the real me. I'm just a person who is there to listen to THEIR problems and if ever dare speak about my problems, lord knows what would happen. Honestly now days i just get bored, sitting around talking about clothes, or about some jam i havent been to. i only see this group of friends at school, not outside of school, so sometimes it feels like i'm just a SCHOOL friend. This is not the way it's supposed to go is it? Sahra doesnt like these group of girls, and they dont like Sahra. How awkward is that to be stuck in the middle? Dont get me wrong, i like these girls, but i dont think i fit in enough with them, to hang out with them all the time.


Then there's other people.

There is a girl named Farhiya who used to be my best friend. I dunno what we are now. Yeah we still talk and hang out but i feel like she doesnt trust me. That's cool though.... honestly i think after what me and her have been through, and what i did to her recently this year... She has all the right in the world to not like me.

Remeber my "friend" Laila? Yeah... we're not really friends.. she thinks she's my friend but i cant stand her these days. She's always so clingy and stingy and the only reason why she's hanging out with me these days is cuz she got in a fight with her old friends. I dont want to be no rebound chick.


So out of all these girls, who do you think is the most dearest to my heart? As corny as it sounds... Sahra is my best friend in the whole wide world and i could trust her with anything.

Although.. honestly i trust Farhiya alot too. But since she doesnt trust me.. i dont think it's going to work.

Inshallah we'll see what Allah has planned for Farhiya and I in the future.


Complicated_LaydeeXOXO